Trust

To say that I have had trust issues is a huge understatement and in the past these trust issues have caused me to question things, doubt people and feel the need to check up on whoever it was that I was dating. In the end more times than not, the trust issues were warranted and the guy was lying or cheating or on the verge of cheating. Overall I have met more liars than honest guys and it hasn’t helped my lack of faith in mankind.

What’s very strange to me is the relationship that I’m now is not causing me any jealousy, distrust or to question anything. For whatever strange reason, I trust him more than I have trusted anyone before. What’s even more strange is that he is extremely outgoing and has many female friends which could alarm some girls (and would have normally alarmed me) but it’s not even phasing me. I actually find it attractive and intriguing.

It makes me wonder if this is what it’s supposed to be like in a real relationship and I just never knew it because I never experienced it? I feel secure and comfortable. Since the inception of the relationship, I have had the question posed to me of “Really? You and him?” And “How could he have more to offer than I do?” and so on. These questions/statement made me doubt my choice for a little while but now I am confident that I am making the right choice. Not because of who he is but because of who I am when I am with him.

Only time will tell where this will lead but I am happy to be experiencing it no matter what the outcome.